I knit a lot when I’m at school. If I have any free time before class, I’m either knitting or reading or both. At some point, a classmate usually strikes up a conversation about the knitting. It goes a little like this:
Them: Is that knitting or crocheting?
Me: Knitting, Crocheting has only the hook, knitting has multiple needles.
Them: Oh. I never could figure out how to do it.
Me: It’s not too difficult. I look stuff up on youtube when I don’t know how to do it.
Them: So how long have you been knitting?
Me: A long time. (I’m not very good at conversation, can you tell?)
And then, they always ask the same question. The one dreaded question…
“So do you ever knit for other people?”
I can never tell what this question means. Are they just trying to make conversation? Do they want me to knit something for them? It never ceases to make me feel guilty when asked that question. So do you knit for other people? To be honest, not really.
I knit things for my family when they request something or when I see a need, but other than that, I pretty much knit for myself. Whenever I get asked that question I always wonder: Am I selfish? Do I not knit for other because I’m selfish? Does that make me a bad person? (Ravelry doesn’t help either. Whenever I add a project it asks “Who is this for?” Me, Ravelry. Always me. )
And yet, is it bad to just knit for myself? Knitting is what I do to relax and get away from everything else. Can’t it just be my thing? I think I’m afraid that if I take on requests from people that knitting with stop being my escape and become another obligation. Because knitting for others is stressful. What if it doesnt fit? What if they don’t like it? What if they don’t wash it right? What if. I don’t want my knitting to become a source of stress when it is supposed to be an outlet. So that’s why; when people ask if I knit for other people, I say no.