I’m finally getting settled into the rhythm of the semester. It’s a lot of work, but I kind of like it. I do well with a little extra bit of stimulus and while I wish it were a class or two less, I still get a bit of a thrill from doing well in my classes. (Not that I’d know. Darn you, college and your small number of tests!) There’s just that bit of Hermione in me that gets way too excited about reading all the books and learning all the things.
While there isn’t a problem with a passion for learning, sometimes I worry that I get a little too Hermione-ish and become that one student. You know the one. The one where everyone rolls their eye because they’ve got their hand up again. There’s a large possibility that I am actually that student. I can’t help it. It’s the Hermione in me.
Theses are also the times that I wonder why Hermione didn’t use the time turner for sleep. Because that’s totally what I would be doing with it.
I also worry that sometimes I push too hard. I have a bad habit of putting too much pressure on myself. It can be good in a minor sense because it motivates me, but it can also become an issue. Sometimes there are days when my body goes, “you know your limit? It was back there.” and I feel all of that pressure at once. Like this morning. You know it’s gonna be a good day when the barf bucket gets to ride in the car with you. (8:00 am classes at a school an hour away can sometimes disagree with me.)
I think that for me, one of the biggest things I am learning this semester(year) is how to gauge my abilities. While everything feels so immediate right now, sometimes I have to take a step back and remember that finishing that book or giving that presentation is not worth a full blown anxiety attack. (Don’t get me wrong, all of my work gets done. Sometimes I just have to walk away from trying to perfect an assignment too much.) I’ve been really trying this semester to maintain a sense of peace during the semester and trust that I am in the right place and therefore won’t be able to screw things up that easily.
Do you ever struggle with placing too much pressure on yourself? Did you find a solution that worked for you? I’d love to hear about it.